[ it will probably be ryouma who regrets this severely later on, but for now...
the click of the blade opening sounds too loud to his ear suddenly and maybe that's why it's not as bad as it could be. it connects somewhere that this shouldn't be happening because this is never his first choice and something changes. it's little, subtle things, but to a swordsman with his level of mastery, that matters.
that's why it's across owen's thigh as opposed to a more lethal alternative and the sword shakes in ryouma's hand now that it's drawn because he'd probably like to kill owen instead. whatever's in his head would love for that to happen. he resists because his ideals are everything to him, but the fact that he's struggling only feeds back into what's causing this in the first place. ]
Stupid! Why didn't you run away?! What's the point of rushing into things you can't win?!
[ this complaint is obviously rooted in something owen's only reminded him of, but right now that hardly matters. ]
if i could quit napping before i hit enter that'd be great
the click of the blade opening sounds too loud to his ear suddenly and maybe that's why it's not as bad as it could be. it connects somewhere that this shouldn't be happening because this is never his first choice and something changes. it's little, subtle things, but to a swordsman with his level of mastery, that matters.
that's why it's across owen's thigh as opposed to a more lethal alternative and the sword shakes in ryouma's hand now that it's drawn because he'd probably like to kill owen instead. whatever's in his head would love for that to happen. he resists because his ideals are everything to him, but the fact that he's struggling only feeds back into what's causing this in the first place. ]
Stupid! Why didn't you run away?! What's the point of rushing into things you can't win?!
[ this complaint is obviously rooted in something owen's only reminded him of, but right now that hardly matters. ]